J.E. Lowder

Countless times I have heard, “I would never go through rush again,” yet here I am, going through it a second time. I like to think since I have gone through this before, I am so much wiser than the people going through if for their first time. However, I’m still getting caught up in the thought that this is everything. Which it isn’t, it is just a very emotional process where you make yourself vulnerable.

The thoughts of not getting invited back to my top houses ,or at least one, has me in an anxious mess. It was not until last night I had finally processed I’m doing this whole thing again. Last year, I was so confident. I was senior class president,had good grades, and anything else I thought a sorority could want. In retrospect, I can see how I was searching for my identity and security by joining a sorority.

I…